Stop, I've heard this one

So, you're plugging along and suddenly you are struck with the thought that if you had stayed he might not be dead.

Which, while it might be true, is not something I can do anything with.

(Someone who was at one time my best friend shot himself a little over a year ago, we were similar people but we'd been out of contact for a long time so it didn't shake me up as much as it might've.)


Also possible: I might be dead instead or as well.

Or we could have become a duo of inseparable gun-wielding psychopaths that went on a rampage across a cowering nation and were secretly in love.



I want to call him a prick (again) for killing himself but it felt forced then and it will feel forced now.